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three threads twined into one post

December 6, 2008

I’ve fallen silent recently, mostly because a lot was stirred up by the workshop. Today I’ve been reading a lot of things that have been really inspiring–it’s so amazing to me how much the written word can do, how it can tear us and the world apart and then put us back together again. I want to share what I’ve read with you:

First, Hope in Common by David Graeber (which really needs to be read in full):

Consider here the term “communism.” Rarely has a term come to be so utterly reviled. The standard line, which we accept more or less unthinkingly, is that communism means state control of the economy, and this is an impossible utopian dream because history has shown it simply “doesn’t work.” Capitalism, however unpleasant, is thus the only remaining option. But in fact communism really just means any situation where people act according to the principle of “from each according to their abilities, to each according to their needs”—which is the way pretty much everyone always act if they are working together to get something done. If two people are fixing a pipe and one says “hand me the wrench,” the other doesn’t say, “and what do I get for it?”(That is, if they actually want it to be fixed.) This is true even if they happen to be employed by Bechtel or Citigroup. They apply principles of communism because it’s the only thing that really works. This is also the reason whole cities or countries revert to some form of rough-and-ready communism in the wake of natural disasters, or economic collapse (one might say, in those circumstances, markets and hierarchical chains of command are luxuries they can’t afford.) …It’s only when work becomes standardized and boring—as on production lines—that it becomes possible to impose more authoritarian, even fascistic forms of communism. But the fact is that even private companies are, internally, organized communistically.

Next, The Love of My Life by Cheryl Strayed. One of the most difficult things about dealing with my father’s abuse has been the terrible loss–I can’t be close to him and, really, I never could. Strayed’s essay about her overwhelming grief after the death of her mother struck a deep chord in me, and made me cry. A lot. Here’s the opening:

THE FIRST TIME I cheated on my husband, my mother had been dead for exactly one week. I was in a cafe in Minneapolis watching a man. He watched me back. He was slightly pudgy, with jet-black hair and skin so white it looked as if he’d powdered it. He stood and walked to my table and sat down without asking. He wanted to know if I had a cat. I folded my hands on the table, steadying myself; I was shaking, nervous at what I would do. I was raw, fragile, vicious with grief. I would do anything.

After reading this, I spent more time browsing through The Sun’s archives and came across this interview with Andrew Harvey, a gay man who’s been writing about spiritual and religious traditions for decades and now feels called to engage in sacred activism:

Harvey: …Sacred activism is the fusion of the mystic’s passion for God with the activist’s passion for justice, creating a third fire, which is the burning sacred heart that longs to help, preserve, and nurture every living thing.

Lawler: So mysticism alone is not enough? It must merge with activism?

Harvey: All mystical systems are addicted to transcending this reality. This addiction is part of the reason why the world is being destroyed. The monotheistic religions honor an off-planet God and would sacrifice this world and its attachments to the adoration of that God. But the God I met was both immanent and transcendent. This world is not an illusion, and the philosophies that say it is are half-baked half-truths. In an authentic mystical experience, the world does disappear and reveal itself as the dance of the divine consciousness. But then it reappears, and you see that everything you are looking at is God, and everything you’re touching is God. This vision completely shatters you.

We are so addicted, either to materialism or to transcending material reality, that we don’t see God right in front of us, in the beggar, the starving child, the brokenhearted woman; in our friend; in the cat; in the flea. We miss it, and in missing it, we allow the world to be destroyed.

keep on digging

November 21, 2008

I’ve been reading and really enjoying Ursula K. Le Guin’s The Language of the Night: Essays on Fantasy and Science Fiction. Here’s an interesting quote from it:

A political activist can take her answers from the current ideology of her movement, but an artist has got to dig those answers out of herself, and keep on digging until she knows she has got as close as she can possibly get to the truth.

What do you think?

reality begins to permeate?

October 23, 2008

I was just listening to BBC radio and the announcer said, basically, “The global financial crisis has led to the questioning of capitalism itself, by some.” I’m glad the BBC is acknowledging that this is happening, and that more and more people seem to be realizing, hey, maybe a system predicated on endless growth isn’t the best plan in a finite world. But, darling, some of us have been questioning capitalism for a long time. Have you met my friend Emma?

August 9, 2008

I wrote this in my diary a week or so ago, and I’ve been meaning to post it since then:

it hurts so bad but i can and will endure. i am deeper and stronger than the violence or the shame or my father’s twisted little games. i am a tree. i am a snake, an egg, a golden swan. i am ice and snow and change. i am spring’s green pull to the surface. i am the ocean, depths and sparkling surface at once. i am the goddess and i can assume a thousand forms, a thousand retreats and transformational havens in the face of violence, a maiden turned to tree, seeds hard and concealed ‘neath soil in winter’s razing spite. i am the goddess and i am reborn in a thousand ways under the sun’s warm kiss, seeds sprouting green and vibrant, bark turned supple and vulnerable once more, able to feel the sweet breeze beneath my toes, secrets unearthed, monsters welcomed home and made whole by love love love, the safe touch of a friend’s hand encircling my own. i am the goddess and i can not only live through hell; i can make flowers blossom there.

tell me your post-vegetarian stories

May 5, 2008

So, my post on becoming post-vegetarian has gotten the most hits of anything I’ve written here. It seems like there is considerable interest in the topic, and I haven’t seen much information about it online. If you do have any links of interest, please share them in the comments. I’m even more interested in hearing your stories. I’ll post the most interesting ones. Here are some questions to consider:

Why did you decide to start eating meat again?
What choices do you make regarding food?
What have your post-vegetarian experiences been like?
(How) has your identity changed with this dietary change?
How have other people in your life responded to this change?